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I’m so scared at the moment that I’m going to loose Jodie. She’s moved away to university and for the time being I’m stuck here on the opposite side of the country. It’s been 7-8 days now and I feel hollow, my insides feel like they’ve been ripped out. I miss her so much, we spent so much time together.
She seems to be okay with the limited text and Skype communication we’ve had so far. But I feel left neglected, texts and messages left unanswered for hours if answered at all. I answer any message as soon as I can and If I’m going to sleep I will message her and tell her, but I don’t receive the same.
Tonight I tried to explain how I’m feeling and ended up feeling like a dick, I don’t think I’m acting like a dick, I just find I hard to explain my emotions. I just wish she would put a bit more effort in, cos’ right now I can’t sleep while she is I assume fast asleep having not answered my text or said good night.
Am I being unreasonable?
Basically a week since Jodie left for uni in Bath and I feel more lost, alone, isolated and detached from the rest of the world than ever. I knew it would be difficult but I didn’t think it would be this hard this fast. I really don’t know how to cope with this much longer, everything reminds me of her. I’ve got to wait another week to see her and after that I have no idea. I need to find a job and house share in Bath asap! All I’m doing is working, sleeping, drinking and mindlessly browsing the web, I’m barely eating I’ve lost 2 inches on my waist in the last couple of weeks, and with my diet (vegan) you really have to make an effort to get your minerals and vitamins which I’m not getting at the moment. I just don’t know what to do with myself :(